update again again!

Alright so this would be the sad post im talking about, finally haha. Yeah as i said in the previous post, alot of negatives have been either diluted or squared. So yeah id still write.

Firstly, Since quite long ago ive been suspected of having something called Retinal Degeneration, a condition whereby the retina thins and starts to peel away from the back of your eyes, causing you to see things floating and blocking your visions. Small blind spots. That's exactly wat i see. Anyway it is a bad condition, if not stopped from further degeneration, it could lead to blindness. I was worried of course, had to wait rather long for doctor's appointment. So Monday came, missed school to go to tantockseng hospital opthomology department. The doctor was a very good doctor my cousin/auntie recommended. They both went to see him. My cousin has retinal degeneration, that's how i know wat the symptoms are like. I had these tings in my eyes for years already, just that i thought no big deal. Until got bigger and more dunno-wat-crap appeared.

So okay i cut the crap and so saw the doctor, guess wat his conclusion! NO retinal degeneration! but yeah just the milder form, the EARly stage. Vitreous degeneration. Chances of me geting retinal degeneration is 1/500, according to doctor. You want information about vitreous degeneration go search yourself or ask me. It's basically just ppt formed in your vitreous humour. So okay la. Doctor say nope no cure no med no nothing, just try to stabilise your degrees, and study less! hahahah! he actually said that! I shall heed his advice. He said he has about 30 or so floaters too, which is tonnes more den mine. Floaters and the ppt floating about in your vision.




Secondly, a few weeks ago my father was diagnosed of Cologne Cancer, stage 4. Stage 4 is the highest stage whereby the tumour cells have already started to metastasize and spread. The cancer has spread to the liver as indicated by funny spots on the liver during some dunno wat scan. I sound calm but hey it's serious stuff. Doctor says approximately 18 months left. I'm not worried at all man, big deal! Doctor's bullshit report, i ain't taking any of it. This isn't called denial, it's called the peace of God man! God says he ain't dying so he ain't dying so i ain't worrying! No kidding. I was not worried or scared or sad at all upon hearing the news. He is already healed.. right?

So anyway today is friday, and today is his operation day, went in to the operation theatre where they performed (no pun intended) the operation. Surprising or not they couldnt find the tumours on the liver! got nothing except one pimple sized one on the surface =). The main ones in the cologne were 2, both 5cm apart. They removed part of the cologne and stitched back and that's the end of the story. Once again God saves the day =) There could be still tumour cells roaming in his blood, but ah wait for doctors report on that. When God works he makes sure he's made a clean breast of things and that nothing is left behind. So that's it for this issue.

Den it seems to be a screwed up year. The devil is hard at work. Timothy's grandma passed away. H.z's father recalled back to heaven due to brain cancer. My grandma has hollow bones, aunt had gallstones and liver tumour, uncle gallstones, got more i wont go on. Look at moralising facts instead: " by Jesus' stripes we are healed " =)

Another sad thing happened yesterday, when belle came to visit us in school. Total surprise. Really disappointing thing is that i wasn't behaving myself, and for the rest of the day i was left brooding over it, 'why i liddat?'. Don't read too much, im just saying i probably gave a bad impression, and in these kinda scenarios where i don't have the chance to talk frequently to the other party, it's hard to redeem my image once ive tarnished it. It wasn't good right from the start actually, that was my most screwed up time of my life.

I'm quite image conscious actually, introspective. I don't like to be high profile though, puts you in a place where ppl would more easily think of you as a 1.poser, 2.flirt, 3.idiot, 4.actcool, 5.retard, and 6.if you do something uncool or something like that it's easily noticed, and if i don't perform well in say sports of something, the fall is great. Hence i dont like to put myself in that kinda position. Low profile is fun! Less likely to have ppl talking about you behind your back too.




Here's a random addition to this sad post. today had 2.4 trial run, i didnt run la. After that my class played touch rug, and i played too!! I played!! you know wat that implies?? it means i RAN! woww. first time i actually ran in 3 months! good la scored some points, im bad at tactics la haha. Cihan taught us how to play, not fair lor the other side got her experience to their advantage! But we play play only la haha, it's really a fun sport! I'd play more next time when i've further recovered. Anyway yeah i felt like crap la i was severely short of breathe, even though didnt run much. haha. The result of 3 month's worth of total inactivity. My knee didnt ache! wat a surprise. Meannss.... i can start increasing the intensity soon.. heh heh heh.



The saddest things are things that can't really be made much better, and in this case it would be of juniors having to leave the class. =( It's really sad. Talk about it next time







[Edit: 3/3/2006]
Today is Jinglin's birthday! Happy 18th birthday zeh! =) sweet 16, sweeter 17, now m18! haha.. Ok that's all for this special message


New updates about my injury.. it's getting worse and worse.. shaizer.. I was climbing blardy overhead bridge with impatience and knee just died. The pain feels funny, now i don't think it's tendon problem, feels more like ligament problem, and from the location of the pain (i can't reach it, feels like it's under the patella) i surmise it's cruciate ligament problem. i hope it's not, that'll be realllyy bad. Den again God can heal me. Think i'd go and see a REAL specialist soon, like FINALLY. There's a sports injury dept at Alexandra hospital




New updates about my hobbies. I'd be getting a Tamiya TB02R tub chassis soon! =))))) woohoo my first electric car. The singapore nitro scene not much left, and e track at marina square closing down, means nowhere to play already. And petrol is expensive, and i can't get my new engine running yet. Electrice cars much easier. Expensive but more of a one time investment. Getting 5 x 3300mah batteries too, need a new bodyshell, power supply and a charger, which can charge at a maximum of at least 6amps. The more the happier. Tires wont be cheap, they wear down so fast.

I just bought 2 remote controlled toy tanks!! miniature size.. DAMNN cute!! haha today i brought to school to play with bernard.. i sold one to him, influenced zongyi to buy one, and bought another one for myself, hence still got 2. Damn cute la you fire den the tank jumps back. den get hit it spins 360degrees haha! I think every1 see already jealous sure go buy.

Bike news, i got a new pair of aerobars, exchanged my old ones away, these are shorter, road-specific, with calibrated adjustable extensions.




Oh and i just found out something, heard of something called Biomedical quiz? A friend was telling me about the things he learn in biomed, and turns out alot of the things are things that i already know!! =DDD I'm so proud of myself. At least i've something to be proud of (academically). Muscle anatomy, muscular system mechanism and structure, innervations and stuff like these. I was like whoaa crap these are things i like, i would have signed up if i knew they were learning these. Id have a huge headstart man. Maybe i'd crash the selection test next friday.
Anyway something else along this line: ive been working on a notebook to write down all the sports-science/physio things that i know. Been compiling a list of factors which in my opinion are the factors that affect and can enhance performance. I think it's really good, useful for me, i don't care if people trust my knowledge, Im just a student like anyone else and i don't expect them to believe what i know cos they'd probably think im of the same calibre as them. And what's more ppl think im a academically lousy student man, well not that im denying that la. I excel in things i like. To me, the study of things i like = understanding, the study of things i dont = memorizing.




I'm getting fat man.. my butt is accumulating fat. You don't believe that's fine with me. This is my blog so im just recording facts. Now when i poke i find about 1.5cm of fat between my finger and my gluteus maximus, last time about more less den 50% of that amt. Tummy getting fat, arms losing shape. Legs losing shape =(((. Atrophy is taking over my right leg, when i stand up and look down i can see a 0.8cm difference, left side got bulge over right side. So sad man shit la all the training to waste. Seems like i have to miss first mountainbike race. There goes my hope of getting into national team. Now have to go via path 2: The road individual time trial/ national's selection time trial, which is somewhere in june or july. I have to make it den.



Here's more random stuff: yesterday i asked bi.ondi and Bernard, "if i had to get a girlfriend from my class, who do you think id get?" I gave dem two guesses. Bernard guessed Pa.mela den Cih.an. I disqualified b.iondi after his first guess, cause it was so off. He guessed Ch.ieh hwee. Nothing against her v fun to talk to, v gd fren but not my kinda girl. Anyway you want my answer to my question come ask me yourself. Doesnt imply i like anyone in class.
Was reading kaiqian's blog, she had some photos of her class at some fren's bday. She was wearing the necklace i bought her! haha looks good. Im glad she loves it.
Hannah and Lysia can't stay in hwachong, so sad =( I'm not in a depressed mood now so i can't elaborate on my point. But yeah i would be sad, im just not allowing it to sink in yet.
I just dropped two toe nails. Oh i am so careless!
Tmr is JTS.
Zhenghan has new eye candy, good luck bro.
Aaron Fu got lost finding the hair saloon i brought him to last time. 1 and half hour plus to get to saloon, haiizz..hahaha wat can i say.
I got new seinheisser earphones.
I got C5 for clao. I passed! I wanted a B though.
I got tonnes of back/shoulderache this year. I really hope someone can help me massage my shoulders, dont want a guy though. Really it's paintful.


Here's a question i just thought of today:
"why do girls like to wear short shorts (eg FBT)?"
And a next question:
"why don't other girls see the girls wearing shorts as AA or showoff, while guys are likely to label other guys who wear sleeveless/shorts/singlets as showoff??"
Got explanations for me? tell me! use comment feature