O's aftermath
Yay! I'm finally free from the drudgery of appeals and making life-changing decisions! I've done all i can, and my fate now lies with with the Principal, and whether or not he has favour with my results. If i don't get in, I dont get in. Wherever God takes me, i'd go =)
Its been exactly a week after the release of O level results, and through the course of this week, ive been caught up in a hell lot of stuff. I really hate decision-making man. I've got 10 friggin points, how screwed up is that? I had never expected to get over 8, and my predicted worse case scenario was only at 9. My sciences screwed up a 3, 2, 2 man, wth la, and wat's worse is that my english and art both A2 la!! WTH. My dreams for a clean entry into jc had been shattered.I had such strong confidence that i would get A1 for both, ESPECIALLY ART! A stupid A2 for art is definitely unjustifiable, i would neVER accept that! At least the school is sending in a mass appeal, due to all the screwed art results which were toTAlly incongruous with wat our teachers had expected. Mr Danny Toh has been setting the art standards for the past 5 years, wat he says as a strong A1 is undoubtedly a strong A1. Yongneng got B3 for art la, wth, and Eugene got E8, wt*. My appeal will and must get through.
10 points is 10 points, i have to live with it. Cant stay in Hwachong without appeal, so how? appeal lor. Nothing much to appeal with either, no sailing. Appealing via strings and chinese orchestra. Chances are slim- i have no cca background to support my appeal. I have a strong cca record, if they dun even look at it im dead. Went to get my ct, sailing teacher, and art teacher to write reccomendations too.
I can still very vividly recollect how i felt before and after receiving the O level results. Before i went in, i was tinking of how wonderful ac was, as i walked around the sch compound. For those moments i spent in school before receiving my results, i had completely wiped hwachong out of my mind. It was as though i was trying to brainwash myself into believing i was still an ACSian. I felt so at home once again. Nostalgia swept in, i was depressed but happy, grateful that God had even brought me to this wonderful school. It was only when i had seen the horror of my results, that i crash-landed back into dreadful reality. I couldnt stay in hc, that was when i realised how much i actually liked my class. I felt bad, regretful, and unappreciative. I had taken my hc classmates forgranted. By missing ac so much, i had actually demoted them to 2nd placed friends, like they werent good enough to be my friends. They were all great ppl, and to tink that i had no place for them in my mind. Im such a letdown, i didnt even feel like i deserved their friendships anymore. Many of them even smsed me to comfort me about my results, how did they even know.. I am really sorry =(
The issue of which JC to go was a really big burden to me. I couldnt friggin decide.Its hard to do so when you're caught up in a vortex of emotions,when you dont even know wat is most crucial in your life. It was either RJ,VJ, HC, or AC. Among the impt factors affecting my decisions were - FRIENDS, STUDIES, ENVIRONMENT, cca and distance. i had to choose. VJ was eliminated, too far. I love AC, all my friends. Its a perfect place, ONly if there weren't all the * posers and sluts, paikias and bitches, and stupid idiots from neighbourhood schools. If only the school only consisted of ACSI GENTLEMEN and MGS ladies. The rest serve only to tarnish and ruin the reputation of the school. I despice them. ACJC will go down e drain because of them. wth den am i doing in hc? when i am supposed to be at AC to help raise its standards? cos I cant make a difference. half of the smart population are elsewhere, because they find AC a turnoff for them, and thus the vicious cycle continues. AC studies arent that bad, seriously. If i can get into a good class, i would have nothing to worry about. But if i dont, i have to contend with a class of idiots and brainless ppl. RJ is a very good choice too, i have many friends there too, tho less then the number i have at ac. Wat's more, there's sailing, which means i have a gd chance of appeal. However, placing both of them as the top two choices would be equivalent to positioning a sword of damocles abov my head. If i cant get into the first choice via appeal, wat chances do i have in the second? I'd go back to AC, no readaptation needed. Instand happiness. ( if i dont tink about the non acsians).
Ive finally decided on wat i want to be in the future. The realm of architecture in singapore is small, no space, no resources, no chance. Im considering materials engineering and sports medicine, both of which do not require physics at all. Good, i am likely to fail it anyway.
My decision to stay in hc was more or less firm, until the past few days, where i finally felt like i'd be the happiest in AC. I had actually hoped that i would fail my appeal, so that i could go to AC. I stil felt that way today, until i went out with my class today, den did the feeling subside. now as i am writing this post, i hav no idea wat i am feeling now. Im confused and emotionally numbed.
I feel like a dick. I dwell so much on the past, i dont treasure the present, and i dont look forward to anything at all. past present future, i live in neither of the three.
Its been exactly a week after the release of O level results, and through the course of this week, ive been caught up in a hell lot of stuff. I really hate decision-making man. I've got 10 friggin points, how screwed up is that? I had never expected to get over 8, and my predicted worse case scenario was only at 9. My sciences screwed up a 3, 2, 2 man, wth la, and wat's worse is that my english and art both A2 la!! WTH. My dreams for a clean entry into jc had been shattered.I had such strong confidence that i would get A1 for both, ESPECIALLY ART! A stupid A2 for art is definitely unjustifiable, i would neVER accept that! At least the school is sending in a mass appeal, due to all the screwed art results which were toTAlly incongruous with wat our teachers had expected. Mr Danny Toh has been setting the art standards for the past 5 years, wat he says as a strong A1 is undoubtedly a strong A1. Yongneng got B3 for art la, wth, and Eugene got E8, wt*. My appeal will and must get through.
10 points is 10 points, i have to live with it. Cant stay in Hwachong without appeal, so how? appeal lor. Nothing much to appeal with either, no sailing. Appealing via strings and chinese orchestra. Chances are slim- i have no cca background to support my appeal. I have a strong cca record, if they dun even look at it im dead. Went to get my ct, sailing teacher, and art teacher to write reccomendations too.
I can still very vividly recollect how i felt before and after receiving the O level results. Before i went in, i was tinking of how wonderful ac was, as i walked around the sch compound. For those moments i spent in school before receiving my results, i had completely wiped hwachong out of my mind. It was as though i was trying to brainwash myself into believing i was still an ACSian. I felt so at home once again. Nostalgia swept in, i was depressed but happy, grateful that God had even brought me to this wonderful school. It was only when i had seen the horror of my results, that i crash-landed back into dreadful reality. I couldnt stay in hc, that was when i realised how much i actually liked my class. I felt bad, regretful, and unappreciative. I had taken my hc classmates forgranted. By missing ac so much, i had actually demoted them to 2nd placed friends, like they werent good enough to be my friends. They were all great ppl, and to tink that i had no place for them in my mind. Im such a letdown, i didnt even feel like i deserved their friendships anymore. Many of them even smsed me to comfort me about my results, how did they even know.. I am really sorry =(
The issue of which JC to go was a really big burden to me. I couldnt friggin decide.Its hard to do so when you're caught up in a vortex of emotions,when you dont even know wat is most crucial in your life. It was either RJ,VJ, HC, or AC. Among the impt factors affecting my decisions were - FRIENDS, STUDIES, ENVIRONMENT, cca and distance. i had to choose. VJ was eliminated, too far. I love AC, all my friends. Its a perfect place, ONly if there weren't all the * posers and sluts, paikias and bitches, and stupid idiots from neighbourhood schools. If only the school only consisted of ACSI GENTLEMEN and MGS ladies. The rest serve only to tarnish and ruin the reputation of the school. I despice them. ACJC will go down e drain because of them. wth den am i doing in hc? when i am supposed to be at AC to help raise its standards? cos I cant make a difference. half of the smart population are elsewhere, because they find AC a turnoff for them, and thus the vicious cycle continues. AC studies arent that bad, seriously. If i can get into a good class, i would have nothing to worry about. But if i dont, i have to contend with a class of idiots and brainless ppl. RJ is a very good choice too, i have many friends there too, tho less then the number i have at ac. Wat's more, there's sailing, which means i have a gd chance of appeal. However, placing both of them as the top two choices would be equivalent to positioning a sword of damocles abov my head. If i cant get into the first choice via appeal, wat chances do i have in the second? I'd go back to AC, no readaptation needed. Instand happiness. ( if i dont tink about the non acsians).
Ive finally decided on wat i want to be in the future. The realm of architecture in singapore is small, no space, no resources, no chance. Im considering materials engineering and sports medicine, both of which do not require physics at all. Good, i am likely to fail it anyway.
My decision to stay in hc was more or less firm, until the past few days, where i finally felt like i'd be the happiest in AC. I had actually hoped that i would fail my appeal, so that i could go to AC. I stil felt that way today, until i went out with my class today, den did the feeling subside. now as i am writing this post, i hav no idea wat i am feeling now. Im confused and emotionally numbed.
I feel like a dick. I dwell so much on the past, i dont treasure the present, and i dont look forward to anything at all. past present future, i live in neither of the three.
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