strings and co..final
all my cca dilemma is over! finally settled down on joining strings and co... cos when i went to consult my pe teacher she helped me calculate that i can get damn alot of points! haha... badminton cant make it..... squash already too good.. bowling track cross country are boring.....haha... track have paikias and posers... crosscountry too... water polo too shiong.. canoeing too many days......haha... den since co (chinese orch) duwan me to quit... and i like strings music.. and cos ive already made good frens with co bassists..(royston phoon) and i have classmates in strings ( glori, zongyi) and strings got chance become section leader.. and co can get into final judging for syf...all these reasons lead me to stay in co and strings! haha..... finally.. i like playing double bass..hahaha..
ahh.. not used to bloggin.. nvr blog so long like soo many tings to say but cannot say finish again...den like cannot remember wat to say..just spam..here it goes...
wednesday: went back to acsi!! woooohoo... to view my jacket sample and collet my eagles' award.. eagles award was a cheque of 150! wa rich liaoz! ahh as usual felt soooooo good to be back again! i alighted from the bus stop and walked tot eh traffic junction.. den guess who i saw at the other end.. kwong ming!! the succeeding sailing captain.. haha..ah so jealous.. he was wearing full school U.. with prefect's tie.. collar pin.. and the 'prefect councillor' badge.. now that i no longer am part of acsi these tings no longer hold any significance or authority.. i miss the tie somehow.. the same tie ive worn for 3 yrs! i rmmber that when jc started i felt so weird w/o my tie.. km was nice enough to skip his sailing trianing and accompany me to view the jackets..haha..
the walk to school was a pleasant one.. kinda steeped in nostalgia as i strolled down the main driveway..its just like how i always walked to school... =( ok anyway the jacket was great.. they had followed my design quite accurately.. corrected some measurements and tadaa i tink it looks great now.. but dang there isnt my name on the jacket..haha.. years from now i hope that the jacket wouldnt be taken forgranted..at the cafe i just felt like drinking nescafe again..just like i always do every morning at acsi.. i still do try to practice this ritual at hcjc too though.. ppl tink its addiction..but i know its not..it is just that i dont lose my ac ways.. i dont want to change..the resolution i made will not be broken..
but den.. easier said then done...many ppl have changed soem way or another..and so have i.. i cant help it.. im losing the ' ac spirit'.. its inevitable.. =( here at hwachong im happy..but i feel that i am happier back at acsi.. somehow it just aint the same.. hc is good..everyone is great..but somehow there just isnt that 'connection'.. i feel kinda solitary down here..where are the ppl i can talk to.. crap with... make fun of... joke with.... spam with.. play with.. bullshit with... nonsense with..... act dumb with..pretend to fight with... pace with... run with.. eat with...act childish with.... act gay with?? all the ac crappiness in me is slowly going away.. my vitality seems to be draining away.. talking to isabelle lead me to realize.. since when was i dis quiet in sec sch? since when did i ever walked alone and hav no one to wave to.. hi 5 with.. or give a friendly tap on the back too? as i walk across the hc canteen everymorning.. i try to picture myself walking back up the spaceframe.. to the boardroom where all the councillors would be every morning.. and den we would go for our morning ' stroll' arnd the sch compound when ppl were standing to devotion..Im very sure im the the only one who feels like this.. Isabelle misses her friends too..so do i... She misses all the crap that rgs and rgs frens have to offer..and so do i...that makes us ppl in the same boat.. but even so it doenst mean that we are of the same kind.. the same frequencies... and thus we still cant relate each other.. she cant replace my friends..and neither can i replace hers..
Hc social life is going quite well so far.. made more and more friends as the days go by.. now i know gloria...and played squash with here one day...and while toking to her candice interupted and thus we know each other too.... while doing homework on my class bench.. other class peeps came over.. one guy called quee(however u spell it).. nice guy....new friend... through canoeing n chong guang got to know mark.. from ncc..he looks very AC...and really lean..but im happy i got more veins then him..other ppl i befriended forgotten their names..must look at they face...also starting to get closer to my classmates... while more distant to others...david and biondi are in their own clique so i dun talk to david anymore..too much girl-talk..biondi still talks to me quite alot...not just mere ' hi/bye'.. at least he waits for me to go canteen etc... the rest are all nice ppl...i wont say much.. zongyi's a really nice guy...tink he's one of the ppl im closer too... and timothy as well... he's quite full of shit.. exhibits dumb humour...which is someting i feel familiar with..Delin's a very nice person.. except when he disturbs me about isabelle..haha..i know he's kidding anyway...Bernard is a considerate friend.. i always find him..zongyi...or teckchiew sitting around me at lectures/tutorials...help me in alot of stuff..nicholas also always quite helpful in the area of homework...zeying is friendly too.. very nice to me..i rmmber she said ' u're like a small kid trapped in a mature body'.. i was quite happy when she said that..that's wat yongneng.. anuuar and other acsians used to say..its not supposed to be good..it means that im immature and childish...but den again it only proves that i havent changed.. its so fun to act childish with yongneng and jonathan...all the art ppl...so fun...
BUT... making alot of friends is the easy part... can i go beyond just being friends with all the ppl i know? NO.. i dont tink so.. its really hard.. socializing is the easy part.. but after all the common topics such as ' where u from.. do u know who who frm ur sch? wat cca u frm'.. i find myself exhausted of topics that i can talk about... i WANT To talk to my friends... my classmates included..but i just CANT...why???cos i cant find or tink about anything to talk about..... there aint nothing that we have in common to talk about...that's wat i mean when i say we are of different wavelengths.. i dun want to be isolated.. i dun like walking alone... everyone has their own cliques... the girls have so many cliques.. and the guys too... ppl of the same sch flock together... i find it particularly hard to talk to the scgian girls when they are all together...unless they're broken up or someting..Cihan and belle are easier to talk to..cos in a sense i can relate to them better...even though belle says she wants to break the cliques in class... i tink she has to be with cihan less often..nobody can be blamed..if i had another acsian around.. id most likely stick with him too.. the chinese high guys stick togethr..the chung cheng ppl together..the quiet grp together..the scgians together..the rgians together.. im like.. ' delocalized' and cliqueless..i tink the class just needs more time.. i really hope that i can communicate well with other ppl..why cant i tink of topics to talk about? whenever i talk i just find myself repeating tings ive said before. ' soo.. wat cca u joined again?' den id find myself stuck.. towards ppl like kaiqian..xuyan etc all i do say are words like 'hi'... ' what do u have now?' and that's it... superficial talk..
Im also struggling quite hard to keep old friends... they're all nice ppl..but somehow its just inevitable that we are drifting away... i still do talk to yingying..she's nice as ever..just that the topics we have in common are just decreasing... msged rachelle beh last night... let her know that i still know she exist...she's so fun to disturb..haha and she's always there when i need help... msged yongneng too...as well as jonathan..but jonathan never reply...doenst it jus feel so good to hear from old friends again? i hope some1 can initiate 'catching up' with me instead...yongneng misses ac too...though there are many acsians in rj too.. it just aint the same as acsi...glad he's still with pauline..but he seems quite stressed up over the fact that the ac badminton captain is goign after her...ah if ur reading this..cheer up bro! rmmber all the reasons i gave u as to why he'd fail...like really la u sure win one la no kick... zheng han still remembers me..like on weekends he would ask me if i would like to bowl with him and harold...Eeli is also sweet to write me a letter..which xiaoyuan passed to me...havnet talked to her for a long time..and as for xy..i cant find stuff to talk to her about either... Ah David lee.. havent talked to him for quite some time now... shld call him one of these days...
post so long again.. go sleep now..canoeing at 9.45...my last training session... good nite
ahh.. not used to bloggin.. nvr blog so long like soo many tings to say but cannot say finish again...den like cannot remember wat to say..just spam..here it goes...
wednesday: went back to acsi!! woooohoo... to view my jacket sample and collet my eagles' award.. eagles award was a cheque of 150! wa rich liaoz! ahh as usual felt soooooo good to be back again! i alighted from the bus stop and walked tot eh traffic junction.. den guess who i saw at the other end.. kwong ming!! the succeeding sailing captain.. haha..ah so jealous.. he was wearing full school U.. with prefect's tie.. collar pin.. and the 'prefect councillor' badge.. now that i no longer am part of acsi these tings no longer hold any significance or authority.. i miss the tie somehow.. the same tie ive worn for 3 yrs! i rmmber that when jc started i felt so weird w/o my tie.. km was nice enough to skip his sailing trianing and accompany me to view the jackets..haha..
the walk to school was a pleasant one.. kinda steeped in nostalgia as i strolled down the main driveway..its just like how i always walked to school... =( ok anyway the jacket was great.. they had followed my design quite accurately.. corrected some measurements and tadaa i tink it looks great now.. but dang there isnt my name on the jacket..haha.. years from now i hope that the jacket wouldnt be taken forgranted..at the cafe i just felt like drinking nescafe again..just like i always do every morning at acsi.. i still do try to practice this ritual at hcjc too though.. ppl tink its addiction..but i know its not..it is just that i dont lose my ac ways.. i dont want to change..the resolution i made will not be broken..
but den.. easier said then done...many ppl have changed soem way or another..and so have i.. i cant help it.. im losing the ' ac spirit'.. its inevitable.. =( here at hwachong im happy..but i feel that i am happier back at acsi.. somehow it just aint the same.. hc is good..everyone is great..but somehow there just isnt that 'connection'.. i feel kinda solitary down here..where are the ppl i can talk to.. crap with... make fun of... joke with.... spam with.. play with.. bullshit with... nonsense with..... act dumb with..pretend to fight with... pace with... run with.. eat with...act childish with.... act gay with?? all the ac crappiness in me is slowly going away.. my vitality seems to be draining away.. talking to isabelle lead me to realize.. since when was i dis quiet in sec sch? since when did i ever walked alone and hav no one to wave to.. hi 5 with.. or give a friendly tap on the back too? as i walk across the hc canteen everymorning.. i try to picture myself walking back up the spaceframe.. to the boardroom where all the councillors would be every morning.. and den we would go for our morning ' stroll' arnd the sch compound when ppl were standing to devotion..Im very sure im the the only one who feels like this.. Isabelle misses her friends too..so do i... She misses all the crap that rgs and rgs frens have to offer..and so do i...that makes us ppl in the same boat.. but even so it doenst mean that we are of the same kind.. the same frequencies... and thus we still cant relate each other.. she cant replace my friends..and neither can i replace hers..
Hc social life is going quite well so far.. made more and more friends as the days go by.. now i know gloria...and played squash with here one day...and while toking to her candice interupted and thus we know each other too.... while doing homework on my class bench.. other class peeps came over.. one guy called quee(however u spell it).. nice guy....new friend... through canoeing n chong guang got to know mark.. from ncc..he looks very AC...and really lean..but im happy i got more veins then him..other ppl i befriended forgotten their names..must look at they face...also starting to get closer to my classmates... while more distant to others...david and biondi are in their own clique so i dun talk to david anymore..too much girl-talk..biondi still talks to me quite alot...not just mere ' hi/bye'.. at least he waits for me to go canteen etc... the rest are all nice ppl...i wont say much.. zongyi's a really nice guy...tink he's one of the ppl im closer too... and timothy as well... he's quite full of shit.. exhibits dumb humour...which is someting i feel familiar with..Delin's a very nice person.. except when he disturbs me about isabelle..haha..i know he's kidding anyway...Bernard is a considerate friend.. i always find him..zongyi...or teckchiew sitting around me at lectures/tutorials...help me in alot of stuff..nicholas also always quite helpful in the area of homework...zeying is friendly too.. very nice to me..i rmmber she said ' u're like a small kid trapped in a mature body'.. i was quite happy when she said that..that's wat yongneng.. anuuar and other acsians used to say..its not supposed to be good..it means that im immature and childish...but den again it only proves that i havent changed.. its so fun to act childish with yongneng and jonathan...all the art ppl...so fun...
BUT... making alot of friends is the easy part... can i go beyond just being friends with all the ppl i know? NO.. i dont tink so.. its really hard.. socializing is the easy part.. but after all the common topics such as ' where u from.. do u know who who frm ur sch? wat cca u frm'.. i find myself exhausted of topics that i can talk about... i WANT To talk to my friends... my classmates included..but i just CANT...why???cos i cant find or tink about anything to talk about..... there aint nothing that we have in common to talk about...that's wat i mean when i say we are of different wavelengths.. i dun want to be isolated.. i dun like walking alone... everyone has their own cliques... the girls have so many cliques.. and the guys too... ppl of the same sch flock together... i find it particularly hard to talk to the scgian girls when they are all together...unless they're broken up or someting..Cihan and belle are easier to talk to..cos in a sense i can relate to them better...even though belle says she wants to break the cliques in class... i tink she has to be with cihan less often..nobody can be blamed..if i had another acsian around.. id most likely stick with him too.. the chinese high guys stick togethr..the chung cheng ppl together..the quiet grp together..the scgians together..the rgians together.. im like.. ' delocalized' and cliqueless..i tink the class just needs more time.. i really hope that i can communicate well with other ppl..why cant i tink of topics to talk about? whenever i talk i just find myself repeating tings ive said before. ' soo.. wat cca u joined again?' den id find myself stuck.. towards ppl like kaiqian..xuyan etc all i do say are words like 'hi'... ' what do u have now?' and that's it... superficial talk..
Im also struggling quite hard to keep old friends... they're all nice ppl..but somehow its just inevitable that we are drifting away... i still do talk to yingying..she's nice as ever..just that the topics we have in common are just decreasing... msged rachelle beh last night... let her know that i still know she exist...she's so fun to disturb..haha and she's always there when i need help... msged yongneng too...as well as jonathan..but jonathan never reply...doenst it jus feel so good to hear from old friends again? i hope some1 can initiate 'catching up' with me instead...yongneng misses ac too...though there are many acsians in rj too.. it just aint the same as acsi...glad he's still with pauline..but he seems quite stressed up over the fact that the ac badminton captain is goign after her...ah if ur reading this..cheer up bro! rmmber all the reasons i gave u as to why he'd fail...like really la u sure win one la no kick... zheng han still remembers me..like on weekends he would ask me if i would like to bowl with him and harold...Eeli is also sweet to write me a letter..which xiaoyuan passed to me...havnet talked to her for a long time..and as for xy..i cant find stuff to talk to her about either... Ah David lee.. havent talked to him for quite some time now... shld call him one of these days...
post so long again.. go sleep now..canoeing at 9.45...my last training session... good nite
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