It ends at230

Ever heard of the song "It ends at230" by All University Rejects?

I guess you havent, cos it never existed. hahaha. shld really try altering the original lyrics.


argh dreadful friday.. i wont be human if i say im not scared by the prospect of receiving my results. distressing stuff, it seriously ruins my whole mood.

Yeah its nice to go back to school again, but when it has to do with anything academic, it just makes me feel kinda condemned again, like a level lower than everyone else. when people start talking about results, part of my morale just runs away. I only noticed the difference just now when classmates started talking about friday, and i felt the change. Not exactly subtle, but ive definitely never been conscious of that. Ive been plague by pessimistic thoughts for the past two years i guess. Two years of 2nd to 3rd percentile just gets into your head, haha, not that i want to. Ive never been of a pessimistic nature.

Going back to face a whole bunch of schoolmates from the top jc in singapore, how is that not stressful. There are people who complain all along that they wont do well, and then come out with straight aces. people who ask how you did without any care for you whatsoever, or those who pretend to care but are not sincerely concerned. If you're any of the above, bleh go away. Seriously

Okay its not like im gonna do badly after all. I know i talk that way, it just comes quite naturally. I'm not pessimistic. I worked hard for the last stretch, and it may or maynot be too late. Sometimes i wonder why i hadn't woken up earlier, but nah it's too late to think about these. Somehow I was just unable to think straight and that was it. I wonder if things would have been any different if i hadn't gone to hcjc. I'd probably enjoy life so much id end up the same. What if i were in white and blue? What if i listened to yongneng and went rj, what if i listened to jinglin and went vj. what if i chose emo and went vj? hahahah

Eitherway, im glad i had friends who were always there to encourage me. You know who you are, and i do too.

I really don't know what to expect on friday. Based on how ive performed the two years, anything above a pass is a bonus already.. Logically. haha. I don't have any accurate benchmarks for me to predict my results. Its like, i have noo idea of what im capable of, if i even push myself a little bit. Bs? Cs? As?? Im a very consistent performer, and my grades dont fluctuate much. But a pity they are always Os. I have never gotten an A before, nor B, nor D. Only once a C for maths. haha.

I wonder if they have Best Improvement Award.

If you ask me what im aiming for, it'd be AAA duh, and a B3
But coming back to earth, it's AAC, ABB, or ABC as the most feasible best case scenarios. B4
Realistically speaking, i think i'd be looking at BBC or something like that. and.. C6



Anyway, all the best to you! =)

Results are just results, please dont get too demoralized if you dont do well. Life might seem a little dimmer, but all's still bright. In anycase, friends remain and id be here.

to the low flyers. it's time we took off. haha. Lets see how high we can go before stalling.





Actually, i think the pain is not that much in accepting what i get. I'm more afraid of how to face up to people with my results. How people will look at me. =(

Everyone expects much from a HC boy, though like yeah im kinda the wrong person to place your expectations in. Ppl from school are fine, cos they know im nowhere near high flying, stuck on the runway. Its the more distant friends/acquintances/colleagues form everywhere else. I dont feel nice to elaborate, but its just some bad elitist attitude, the same old common story of trying to prove one's self. Of course id be sad if i fail to live up of what ppl expect of me. Im not elitist, neither am i qualified to be one. everyone else everywhere is equally capable of getting straight A's, but im just worried ppl'll read: someone who doesnt do well in HC, is a total loser.

Time flies. If you asked me if i missed HC, i dont really know. It depends on which aspect of it im thinking about. Sometimes i look through my msn list, all the problems ive been through, and i feel that there isnt much to bring along out of HC. Instead i feel glad im out. Sometimes i think about my closer friends, and memories of going through things together, all the friendly hi-bye friends around, part of my classmates; then Id say im glad they all happened. Both are true in their respective senses, but i guess I'd only feel nostalgia about school if i think about it (the latter). Id cherish those magical moments and memories, but i wont really want to go through it all over again if i could; i wont miss it in this sense of the word.


Confusing, its just - i like alot, but the things i dislike are almost equally as much, such that they sorta neutralise each other.

I hope to be optimistic and satisfied tmr, but in case i dont, here's optimism to remind myself, before i run low on it.

Results don't mean everything, not when you have God around. You gave me conscience, morals. Brought me into a wonderful sec school. Gave me wonderful friends and a great experience of life. You gave me talents and status. I didnt do so well, but You brought me into such a JC. A very warm and friendly environment. I didnt fit in, You gave me caring friends. I failed all my studies, You gave me concerned and devoted teachers. [edited]

I almost forgot the word, and drew distant from You infact, maybe thats why im to blame for not accepting and living through JC the way you planned for me to enjoy it. Same for studies. But you brought me through all these while, u let me stay and im sure you'd bring me out with good results. Even if they weren't good, you'd still lift me up high again, simply because of who i am in Christ. So yeah boy don't fret.




In any case, thankGod for the results =)